Monday, 11 September 2017

If I told you I liked you...!


Dear My Crush,
Yes, You are indeed my crush. I have no idea after all these years, I have had to realize it too late. I know It's too surprising even to tell anybody that you are my Crush! Or maybe no one will be surprised either! You are indeed The Crush of many Hearts! And I think I have crush on you, Not because of who you are! But because who you made me! You made me stop thinking about anything But You! You made me thinking about the blurred memories we shared! You made me stammer in front of You! Yup, You have that charm, that affection on me- that leads my Mind To Stop Thinking! I love the way you speak, The way you treat people, The way you treat me! I am not so sure about these feelings. But I'm sure- You would hate me, If I told you I liked you! So, It's better, I never even confess. Because we have long way to go..!
Yours, Not so good Friend!

Friday, 8 September 2017

Alone.

We will talk together.
we will walk together.
We will smile together.
Have lunch together.
Together we will Party.
Do you need a shoulder to cry? I'm here.
Do you need somebody to help you with file? I'm here.
Do you want me to solve your problems? 
Problems that have nothing to do with my life?
Don't worry. I'm here.
Can you just stay by my side?
Oh! I forgot to tell you, I'm alone.
I cannot handle life because, I'm alone.
I find it hard sometimes to make you happy.
To make you smile, to carry the part which is sad.
Oh! You should realize sometimes that I'm alone.
No hard feelings.
No regrets. 
No Expectations.
Oh! You should realize sometimes that I'm alone.

Wednesday, 22 March 2017

Turn Away and Slam The Door...!

That fight between dear Mr Brain and Mr Soul continued for years. But as you know, one had to win and other had to lose! But in her case, She knew she was winning secretly as the fights stopped, as both adjusted, as both Mr Brain and Mr Soul were holding each other not for their egos, but for her! She couldn't understand what was going on!
 She could not get the reason of  the sudden change! But Yes, She started living the life again. She started being the best version of her again! She knew what she was losing. But she also knew what she was going to receive! She was flawless now, she didn't even care what others might think! Started being what she was back then gave her the strength, gave her the attitude, gave her the confidence she had forgotten in last few years! Because of only one sentence that Mr Brain and Mr Soul had said: Turn Away and Slam The Door..!

  

Monday, 20 March 2017

Blink of an Eye!

Lot of noise, Lot more people than usual, Summer afternoon and a Crowded Fun-fair!
I sing as I walk along with my friends. I stop by a stall, takeout the money and proceed to pay. The breeze is Different, different my Heartbeats' rate is, I can feel the steps, I can feel those claps, I remember the voice, I remember your Laugh! Yes, it's you... But you dissapear in a Blink of an Eye ! 😊

Monday, 6 March 2017

Known Stranger!


         It was a perfect tantalizing morning of winter in a village of Switzerland. Wind was fully in its melodious mood. She leaved her footprints so fresh like flowery fragrance a honeybee passes. Her fuzzy, uncombed but straight hair covered half of her face as wind tried to play with that long silky and attractive hair. It was just 9 in the morning and she was tired of having morning exercises including running from one block of the street to another block. She was a cute young muffin seller who knew that the bakery guy at corner of the street, whom she could hardly talked to, whom she got to see once a month as he did a business in a town near to the village she lived was as gentle as the weather there. As the pea cock waits for the mighty clouds to pour the thirst of rain drops to it, she waited for the one day, the first Sunday of every month for him to come. Sometimes she also missed to see him even after lot of efforts as she had to sell all the targeted amount of muffins on Sundays, She also got to talk to him, sit with him, discuss the new ideas for village and bakery products with him but she never could understand whether their 7-8 meetings in those past 4 years were seeming adoring and warm to only her or to him also! She knew that the Bakery guy knew she liked him. But she also knew that he never knew she loved at her fullest, He never knew her pure heart was beating seeing him every first Sunday of the month, He never knew she wished to see him every morning.
         It was a same shining dawn and she looked as gorgeous as a dew drop on lily smiling seeing the sun. She gave a muffin and her tender smile to a 7 year old boy. She knew cross the road an unknown, muscular, very much handsome guy with black shiny bob cut hair style was looking at her with blank expression on his face. She also noticed him noticing her! Number of questions run threw her mind. She felt fear at first, but then she smiled on her own thought for over thinking!

         The same day, in the evening she thought of the Unknown guy. She then remembered him. He was the very famous and the only ice-hockey player in her village. She laughed again being so stupid at very first.
         Days passed. It was again the shimmering first Sunday of the month and she could manage to observe the Bakery guy at distance. She wanted to tell him her feelings since his birthday which was 2 days before on Friday. She wanted to ask whether he felt anything for her the same she felt about him. She wanted to hold the hands forever and run through the piles of ice. She wanted to tell him that she loved him. Suddenly in no time, she went near him. With fear of denial, with trust on her own self, with a hope of acceptance she told him that she wanted to be the half of his existence, that she wanted to share all the ups and downs of his life, that he always seemed perfect to her, that she loved him so much! He smiled gently; he seemed of no interest in her and introduced to his fiancée standing next to the pavement of the structure. She had to smile back so she did.
         “Had she never told him about her feelings, it would have been more comfortable for her to get in touch with him”, she thought! She lived in guilt of telling him the truth. But her heart never stopped beating for him. She remained his soul met from distance. She then used to see him on Sundays from a definite distance and maintained to smile whenever he smiled at her. She was broken from inside but looked soft and blissful from outside. Her beauty enhanced as she was entering in her 20s.
         “Here, you are”, she said giving the pink cherry flavored muffins to an old lady.
She then looked cross the road. The same unknown guy, so tall, fit body structure but with different hair style was staring at her from distance. That incident made her frighten at first. But then she remembered that the guy was the Hockey-player whom she had seen months ago! She wanted to go and meet him, not because he used to see her this way and she wanted to complain, but she really wanted to praise him and greet him as he was one of those famous hockey players! She wanted him to stop there. But one group of children, she had to serve the muffins and he vanished!
“Can you tell me where the guy standing here few minutes ago went? ”, she curiously asked to jack, her very old friend.
“Oh! Yes I know that hockey player. He used to see you every morning. He came to see you daily except Sundays! I don’t know why, but he used to say that he was not perfect for you as he had thought that you already had your Mr. Perfect! Such a great love! He never wanted even you to know that he wanted you to be his so badly.  He had believed that love of his was endless, that would never end for you. He used to say that even for years he could just see you from distance and get the precious feeling in this world! But I guess it’s your bad luck that today was his last day in this village. he will not come back as he told me yesterday. He really loves you my dear!  ”, said the old Jack.  

 It was the second and the last time she got to see that hockey-player- the Known Stranger!

Sunday, 5 March 2017

Pearl v/s Pearl

 A Sunday, comes with a bright Morning and happy smiles... And leaves after very quick and less Hours!
 From Kids to Grand fathers, everyone loves Sunday!
  Pearl loved Sundays too!
But this Sunday was not the same as always, She knew she was good at Studies, she knew she belonged to a very good Institution of her time, she had already started her Preparation for further studies examination, She knew Her parents were proud of her, she was satisfied with what she had. But she again thought if life could be more interesting! She knew she could be more than what she is, she knew she had to explore more in life, she knew she should study and get a job that could fulfill her day to day expenses as well as help her parents out! But Pearl was not One of us. She was one of those people who did what their hearts said! She started Listening to the drowning voice asking for help inside her. She was brave enough to listen to that voice but she was too young to take decision on account of her! Her other dreams, her hobbies, her talents were sinking as she had no time to focus on them while fulfilling the dream of Study, dream of becoming independent, dream of becoming someone who was Eligible! Someone who had got Respect in society. Both the Pearl's thoughts were right in place of theirs. But the Question was, What to Follow? Have you ever faced this situation Pearl v/s Pearl!?

Friday, 6 January 2017

Interrogation...!



'I don't believe in such Relationships and all these Stuff!!', he said it out loud.


That was enough for her to keep mum, may be he never wanted to talk about it and that's why he always refused to talk about it. But she never could understand that one wrong question could break her heart forever. She had thought that he lied about the mystery girl, she was confident that there cannot be such girl. But who knew the truth!


'If you could give me one reason why you hate these stuffs and never believed in love? ',she was polite. She knew that another question and the unbreakable friendship would be broken in no time.


She handled it as politely as she could. But her bad luck was that that Mystery girl was always there with him because of the same department of their office. She knew if he really liked the Mystery girl, if he was in relation with her for 15 days...'BUT MY MYSTERY GIRL AND ME,.. WE HARDLY EVER MEET' she remembered his words. It was impossible for her to believe that the mystery girl was still there, working with him in the same office and after breakup with mystery girl he never felt anything!


'Yes, I can tell you why... But don't ask further with another why.', he restricted her not to ask more.
'I'm calling you in 5 minutes',he quickly added and hung up the phone.

She was not happy knowing her name. She regretted to ask that question. She again tried to remember what he said. 'ANIKA. HER NAME IS ANIKA' , he had said. But that didn't match with any of the occasions she thought. Anika was from different city it was not possible for them to meet she guessed.

 Also, Anika was the name she always hated. In the beginning itself she had enlisted all the other female co-workers' name and those were Prita, Kanksha and ... and Anika. She literally had searched all her past and present with Facebook. Yes, Anika was pretty indeed. At least more beautiful than her.
 But she doubted the answer. Why so easily he spoke her name? Why didn't he ever tell the mystery girl's name before?

Phone rings again his call... she picks up...



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Tuesday, 3 January 2017

Small-Town Girl

Who doesn't love Chole-Puri?
 Well, I myself love to have such indian food..! Obviously why would a girl from a well developed city Surat, not like the only feist she gets once a week? It was a traffic jam on our dining table of the well established PG(Paying Guest) Hall-area!
'Wow Payal di, You make awesome Parathas..! ', a happy stomach became happier seeing Chole with Garma-garam Parathas!
'Yes indeed! Even I'm free because today is my fast  ', Payal di was glad serving me Hot delicious Paratha!

 I had not even tasted them. But I knew they were tasty.. because those were made with love! Payal di didn't even have to make Parathas. But her curiosity and her loving nature made her doing that! We never should judge any person! But as I'm a girl... My blood makes me judging people! and without even a thought I made a question which I first regretted to ask...

'You are so nice at making Parathas.... Are you married?' ,I asked casually.
'Yes....yes I am ',  She smiled!
'But you never told us..! ', I was shocked! In fact.. I was not that much shocked because I had thought she has come from Mehsana. She is B-COM graduated and I had no concern with any of it! And I had never even put such interests in any of the people's lives!

'What does your husband do? ', I had to continues the chat anyway!
'He is... out.. out of country', She seemed Off!
'Woow...!  ', I exclaimed out of curiosity that she must be so lucky having a Husband working or doing whatever in foreign country!

But she was not happy having the conversation!



later on, the story of her life she shared was.. was aweful!

'We were happily married. I wanted to do a job. At least I wanted to be on my own. But my husband was wealthy, he didn't allow me to do a job! But life was happy as ever! I was disappointed till I got the news that I was going to become a Mother! The greatest feeling in the world ever! My mother in law and father in law were behaving good with me.But as time flowed, They started torturing me. They made me home chores even during my 7th month! I ran to my Parents after the Baby-shower! There I had got to know that my baby was not Safe due to the over work-load I had done during 6th and 7th month! I had to take Bed rest! I decided to stay at my Parents' place till my delivery! But God was unkind to that baby! My husband constantly tortured me even on phone calls! I became so Frustrated and... And it was a Miscarriage! I lost my baby on the 3rd day of the 8th month! I was crashed inside! I had never thought that it would result in the biggest disaster! Now, my husband's place was not the same as before.. By the way If I stay at parents', it's my Parents' place. If I live with my husband, it's my Husband's place! I will never be able to find-out which one is my Home!......So, back to the story, I had went back there. It had been almost a year with my husband and for No reason he disappeared! later on after a month I had got to know that He Left India and is in London! It has been 3 years since he left me alone! No one from his family gives me his number. He doesn't even accept my friend request on Facebook! 3 years... I was so sure that I never wanted to be dependent on anybody not even on my Parents.. I am struggling for past 3 years. My in laws never accepted me. Neither I accepted the defeat for Life! I am on my Own Now. Will get divorce on the basis of records and proofs. I will live on my own! but never step back!    ', said a Small-Town Girl!